Andy, The voice of someone who isn't/hasn't ridden in DD but has crashed and burned in the same way you did. As you may be aware back in 2001 i crashed and shatterd my femur, broke 8 bones in my hand and wrist and collar bone in 2 places. It was over 12 months before i could walk without the aid of crutches again. I've got a 20" or so pin in my ffemur and 3 pieces of metalwork in hand and wrist. So, where am i going with this you may be asking.... Well it eats you up inside... I can read between the lines slightly and you still feel like i have many many times, (and still do) that you have something to prove. Maybe to yourself, maybe to others... but there's still something you feel you've not fully scratched off the list as completed. Until you do... there will always be the niggle there in your mind All of you 1-7 doubts are the exact same doubts each and every rider has when prepping the bike for the season. The only big factor is your misuss...... Mine was part of the reason i called it a day from racing, this was mostly due to a few 'incidents' last season, and seeing how unhappy she would be made the decision a little easier. Due to finances i'd already decided to quit anyhow but that was the final nail in the coffin. I am fairly sure you will race this season, be that for 1 meeting or the series i don't know.... but reading you post, you WANT to race.... you're just having the usual doubts. |